I can’t believe it’s been almost two months since my last blog post. Quite honestly, I never thought that I would be able to go a week without blogging, let alone two months, but alas – life happens and throws us curves. Giving us all of these different paths to choose from, and its up to us to decide which are the best for us. Sometimes, it requires some silence and time away from the clutter – from the constant sharing. The past two months were necessary for me to get things straightened out, and to hit my refresh button.
So what’s been going on, you’re probably wondering. There has been a lot of traveling as of late – Florida, back home, Florida again (to see my parents who were living there for the winter). There was Nashville, a contender for where we may want to live in 2 years or so when Trent is finished up with law school (we think California is still the clear winner, but who knows – again.. remember that whole “life throws you curves” thing?) We moved into a new place (which I hope to post photos of somewhat soon) and I cannot believe how stressful that move turned out to be. We were both so busy with other things aside from the move itself, that even hiring people to help didn’t relieve much of the stress. Trent was in the heat of his law finals, my best friend was about to get married, my dad wasn’t feeling his greatest, and there were many, many appointments at Northwestern that I was heading to for support. It was a whirlwind to say the least, and it feels good to be sitting on this new couch and knowing that we’re 98% of the way settled.
In other news, unfortunately on May 13th we found out that my dad’s tumor has grown. Frankly I won’t have much to say about it here, because I haven’t completely wrapped my mind or heart around it yet. I feel as if I’m in total fight mode for him and our family that my grieving is sort of taking a back seat. I had this conversation with Trent last night, that I’m waiting for it to creep up on me. I’m looking forward to it, actually. I think it’s a necessary emotion that helps us all to heal. So if you can hear me, grief, I’m ready for you. Once that happens, I think I’ll feel more comfortable discussing it more candidly with all of you – I’ve gotten so many amazing messages in the past from you readers who are going through the same thing with friends or family, and I’m glad I’ve been able to provide some light or comfort with such a difficult situation. I hope to be able to do that again soon.
On a brighter note, I shot my first wedding of the 2013 season this past weekend and it was an absolute joy to be able to be back in my groove again. This “off-season” as I call it was far too long a stretch- and although I had many shoots throughout the months, it just wasn’t the same. I loved being able to learn the importance that keeping busy with photography is a mandatory thing to keep my soul thriving. But it’s SO important to keep yourself happy and healthy, first. That’s the main thing I’ve learned over these past two months- I’ve been struggling so much with balance and emotions that when they became out of whack, so did my love for everything else -writing, photography, making things, exploring.. that all took such a back seat. I’m hoping that I can vow to never let that happen again. And that you all will have this space to come to on your early morning commutes, lunch breaks, or during a moment of needing to escape.
Stay tuned for many posts to follow. It’s time to play catch up. x
